For many years my Guides and I had a “parable-confusion type relationship”. They spoke in parables and I stayed confused. It was really simple. It was also really painful. When I finally caught on to the whole free will concept, I discovered that I could work with them (all those beings of Light) and define our lines of communication just as I could with the humans in my life.

So I got busy looking at how much I really wanted this information and how I could best assimilate it. Spirit told me, “If you don’t like something then you should change how you think about it and act on it.” I also came to understand that this included my relationship with them as well as my gifts. Yes, they did look at me like I was the crazy one when I finally got this! They were just going along with what I had, at some point, agreed to or more accurately that I had created. THEY were not to blame!

My Life Changed

The first area that shifted was my realization that I had to glean the knowledge from my experiences in order for it to become wisdom. Or, I had to take new knowledge for a test drive (experience it) to make it become wisdom. No matter how I looked at my life or my knowledge, until it had been through this process I did not have the deep knowing, or wisdom, I desired. Until tried and true, it was simply theory or an experience that I couldn’t or didn’t know how to integrate into my core being.

Once I came to that realization, I renegotiated my contract with my Guides and said, “Hey Guys! Time is not what it used to be. Days, even months, are going by in a blink of an eye. There is a lot I want to do, a lot you want me to do, and this process of

Knowledge + Experience = Wisdom

OR

Experience + Knowledge = Wisdom

is taking way too long. I’ll only get about 20% done at this rate. From now on, I want you to just send the full package in one fell swoop. I don’t have the time to read all the books or to have all the experiences. Just give me the wisdom from now on! Make it deep into my being, and make it there when I need it.”

They shouted, “Yea! It’s about time you quit making us jump through hoops along with you!”

My Life Changed Again

I found the simplicity of the new life humbling. One of the ways they stream-lined things for me was to give me opposites (they are indeed tickled at how humans love polarity!) I heard Steve Rother say “The opposite of Love is Fear.” I have since been told this is a basic principle in the Course of Miracles. However, when I heard Steve say it in a seminar, I smiled. He was the only other person I had ever heard make this statement. In the 4 years since I had gotten that simple message, I had come to understand how true that is. I have also seen personally and professionally the healing that comes from this wisdom and the acceptance of its truth.

It reminded me of another ‘opposite’ Spirit gave me. One that forever altered my world. I used to be your classic Type A personality. I lived, breathed and slept control. In the dictionary next to the word control was my picture! Not only that, I was blessed with some of the planet’s best teachers on control. I chose to be born into a family of Master Teachers on the subject of control. I chose relationships with men who had ‘control issues.’ Bosses… Friends… I was surrounded by mirrors. What a blessing! It was making me crazy. I had finally reached the point in my life and evolution where I (Finally!) realized control was one of my ‘issues.’

One day, while doing laundry, this ‘thought’ came to me about control. Of course, I was mentally going over how someone else, close to me, had control issues. So easy to see it in others, is it not? Suddenly a new Wisdom was seared into my being: The opposite of control is NOT out of control. The opposite of control is TRUST. I realized that the manifestation of a core issue was control.. The core issue was about trust.

And my life changed yet again.

Oct. 2003